Is it okay to want to be white? Or is it weird?

I'm an 18 year old hispanic girl, and i hate it. My skin isn't very tan, it's pale, but I tend to blush a lot so I look kind of pinkish/red most of the time. Some people think I'm white, and don't know i also speak spanish. I'm just so tired of all this racism, I wish i could just be white. They have it so much easier, my life would be so much easier if i was white. My parents are mexican, and my dad can speak english, but my mom can't. In the past when we were out in public, they speak to me in spanish (like in a grocery store). It kinda embarres me bc I have to answer them, and then some white people look at us, and maybe they think I'm inferior to them or I can't speak english, even though I can. And, no I don't hate my parents- I just wish they would speak english. I even tried to teach my mom once, but she says she's too tired, and can't learn the language, so wherever we go I have to translate for her. And then there's always someone who asks where i'm from- I always tell them mexico, but I just want to lie and say I'm italian or something like that bc I kinda look italian, but i'm not sure if they'll believe me. Ugh those people bug me so much asking where i'm from! Who cares? God. And no, I am not illegal, I've been here since I was about a year old and I'm a permanent legal resident and soon I'll become a citizen. Oh, and I hate all those nasty stereotypes people have of hispanics- that we are sluts, lazy, temperamental, love to party and dance, have too many children, etc. I know a lot of hispanics (mostly mexicans) who are like that, but I'm not like that- I'm a virgin, I'm quiet, I can't dance to save my life, and I don't really want to have kids. I don't like the mexican guys that hit on me, but then again I'm a , so I don't like men, but i find white guys more attractive, and they've never shown any interest in me (well, with one exception). So what can I do to be whiter, whiten my skin? Change my last name? I'm just not proud of my ethnicity. Anyway, sorry about the long post, and I don't mean to sound racist, these are just my thoughts.